This one is from 2009 still (I think I did a lot of random writting that year...or was it trully random?)
This one reeks of sadness and even though I remember writting it, I seem to have blocked out the object of my pain. Oh well, here goes.
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How do you soothe yourself off the pains of loosing a battle you did not fight coz you knew you might win and you knew that conquering one battle doesn’t mean winning the ensuring war?
How do you let go of a moment that you knew was a figment of your imagination but was the perfect picture of all you ever dreamed of?
How do you pray and ask the Father in Heaven for succour and help when you don’t even know what it is you need help with or succour from?
How do you hurt and cry and hurt and still feel the need to hold on to the object of your pain?
How do you enter a house, knowing there is no way out, save for the way in…backwards?
How do you run, full speed ahead, on a road with a dead end, knowing the dead end but still moving with your eyes shut?
How do you write and speak and think and exist and still end up being the way you were before you learnt to do it all?
How do you stay a diamond…hard as every, but bright as none?
How do you find your feet when there is no ground to step on?
How do you say “ I love you” and feel you do and think you do but know you don’t coz you know you can’t coz the time says you shouldn’t?
How do you know “I love you” are the words to say and hear and “forever” is the time to be and live, still knowing that you can’t say or hear the words coz the time says you shouldn’t and knowing, all too well, just how long your forever is?
How do you?
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Tobe DaDiva
This one reeks of sadness and even though I remember writting it, I seem to have blocked out the object of my pain. Oh well, here goes.
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How do you soothe yourself off the pains of loosing a battle you did not fight coz you knew you might win and you knew that conquering one battle doesn’t mean winning the ensuring war?
How do you let go of a moment that you knew was a figment of your imagination but was the perfect picture of all you ever dreamed of?
How do you pray and ask the Father in Heaven for succour and help when you don’t even know what it is you need help with or succour from?
How do you hurt and cry and hurt and still feel the need to hold on to the object of your pain?
How do you enter a house, knowing there is no way out, save for the way in…backwards?
How do you run, full speed ahead, on a road with a dead end, knowing the dead end but still moving with your eyes shut?
How do you write and speak and think and exist and still end up being the way you were before you learnt to do it all?
How do you stay a diamond…hard as every, but bright as none?
How do you find your feet when there is no ground to step on?
How do you say “ I love you” and feel you do and think you do but know you don’t coz you know you can’t coz the time says you shouldn’t?
How do you know “I love you” are the words to say and hear and “forever” is the time to be and live, still knowing that you can’t say or hear the words coz the time says you shouldn’t and knowing, all too well, just how long your forever is?
How do you?
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Tobe DaDiva
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