How Do You?....A Poem

This is a poem I wrote a while back and I am currently trying to see if I can deliver it in spoken word. Enjoy! 

PS: If I get to deliver it well enough, I will share the audio file with you.

How do you soothe yourself of the pains of loosing a battle you did not fight because you knew you might win and you knew that conquering one battle would not mean winning the ensuring war? 

How do you let go of a moment that you knew was a figment of your imagination but was the perfect picture of all you ever dreamed of? 

How do you pray and ask the Father in Heaven for succour and help when you don’t even know what it is you need help with or succour from? 

How do you hurt and cry and hurt and still feel the need to hold on to the object of your pain?

How do you enter a house, knowing there is no way out, save for the way in…backwards? 

How do you run, full speed ahead, on a road with a dead end, knowing the dead end but still moving with your eyes shut? 

How do you write and speak and think and exist and still end up being the way you were before you learnt to do it all? 

How do you stay a diamond…hard as every, but bright as none? 

How do you find your feet when there is no ground to step on? 

How do you say “ I love you” and feel you do and think you do but know you don’t because you know you can’t because the time says you should not? 

How do you know “I love you” are the words to say and hear; and “forever” is the time to be and live...still knowing that you can not say or hear the words because the time says you should not and knowing, all too well, just how long your forever is? 

How do you?